"Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving..."
- 'Stay'
Rihanna feat. Mikky Ekko
I've always chosen the wrong people to get involved with. They were always the types that I thought would "save" me. It's because my father has been my savior my entire life. I know nothing different. I was brought up with the mentality that a woman should be strong but the man that you're with should be the epitome of strength. Maybe that mentality should no longer apply. Nowadays women are being forced to be stronger than men. I've finally realized that I've been trying to get saved by people that are themselves broken.
I've wasted time wondering why so many bum bitches, birds and hoes are finding love and living the life that I think I deserve. I've wasted years wondering why so many so called "good men" will overlook good women in their paths only to do the most to impress women that are unworthy and undeserving. They will get clothes, shoes, cars, and jewelry all to attract and gain the attention of the very types they claim they don't respect. After removing emotion from the situation and applying logic it's obvious that I've been fucking up. It's not my place to be concerned with what another female is doing. It's not my place to worry about what a man that I'm not involved with is doing. It's not my place to judge people and put the title "bum bitch", "bird", or "hoe" on anyone. I'm not God therefore it's not my place to say what a person does or doesn't deserve.
It is my place to ensure that I fix myself. It is my place to ensure that I continue to carry out my dreams and build my empire even if that means building it alone. It is my place to ensure that I grow to a point that I exemplify the characteristics of the person I eventually want to connect with. It is my place to ensure that my son is always proud of me. It is my place to ensure I save myself.
