"Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving..."
- 'Stay'
Rihanna feat. Mikky Ekko
I've always chosen the wrong people to get involved with. They were always the types that I thought would "save" me. It's because my father has been my savior my entire life. I know nothing different. I was brought up with the mentality that a woman should be strong but the man that you're with should be the epitome of strength. Maybe that mentality should no longer apply. Nowadays women are being forced to be stronger than men. I've finally realized that I've been trying to get saved by people that are themselves broken.
I've wasted time wondering why so many bum bitches, birds and hoes are finding love and living the life that I think I deserve. I've wasted years wondering why so many so called "good men" will overlook good women in their paths only to do the most to impress women that are unworthy and undeserving. They will get clothes, shoes, cars, and jewelry all to attract and gain the attention of the very types they claim they don't respect. After removing emotion from the situation and applying logic it's obvious that I've been fucking up. It's not my place to be concerned with what another female is doing. It's not my place to worry about what a man that I'm not involved with is doing. It's not my place to judge people and put the title "bum bitch", "bird", or "hoe" on anyone. I'm not God therefore it's not my place to say what a person does or doesn't deserve.
It is my place to ensure that I fix myself. It is my place to ensure that I continue to carry out my dreams and build my empire even if that means building it alone. It is my place to ensure that I grow to a point that I exemplify the characteristics of the person I eventually want to connect with. It is my place to ensure that my son is always proud of me. It is my place to ensure I save myself.
Profound.
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ReplyDeleteYou don’t need saving because you’re not in harms ways. What you need is completion because you’re not perfect. God has created anyone perfect however perfection comes in the better half that cherishes you not mind and body because those changes, only soul remain constant. I must fall in love with your Spirit; confidence in any other part of you will fail me. Only looking into your eyes, the gateway of your Soul can I find assurance of the truth. Truth as you loving me unconditionally.
My senses generally fail me so I do not rely on them. My eyes see your perfect beauty and brings me to lust, I can’t be sure if love involve until it’s too late; many things happen in between. My ears hear the words of elation, gratification and appreciate while I’m at hearing distance. One day a little bird will tell me other words you speak less flattering. My hands hold you and my flesh feels you evidence of your body being committed to me but it can’t read the thoughts of your mind remembering or/and desiring the arms of another. I smell your sweet fragrance and vainly take the credit but realize the error when you say good-bye for there is another.
Only when I look past the senses straight to the Soul am I satisfied or disappointed. I would most definitely complete you because I have felt your Spirit and it is soothing and satisfying to me. Although my manhood is sure, my composer is strong, my mind is witty, my heart is fragile so I must look into your eyes to see the truth of your desire!™ Flavor!
Just wanted to say I'm glad your doing well, missed seeing your smile . . . Much love & success to you @compassionatesinner77
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